those who tell the truth shall die

願跨高山遠海
尋找心裡熱愛
懷抱多年宏志
衝障礙 但願衝障礙

我舉足配合時代
夢變真 幸運存在
歷數番 起落風波
風浪裡 展示能耐

願拋身邊幻彩
重新真切地愛
人已入浮雲裡
心卻在疊疊浮雲外

人已入浮雲裡
心卻在疊疊浮雲外

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我好鍾意呢種電子既配樂…亦都鍾意其歌詞.

someone like me, dont want to fail in ath.
someone like me, cant be a loser.
someone like me, seems to be so tough but fragile in fact.
someone like me, have a bad temper, but im a good guy.
sometimes, i want somebody like me, see me in the same way, feel me, understand me, know me.
sometimes, i want somebody can see through my eyes, what im looking for.
sometimes, i want somebody can see through my soul, what i feel sad.

“nightmare again”… n its all about study. n i woke up @ 5, couldnt sleep now. wtf.
i know y, but i dunno how to release it, n i dun think its necessary to be such stressful. 

whatever…

got sick…cough cough cough. its very cold now (to me…) luckily i dun need to exam like the past few years or I need to study in the middle of the night… sitting in front of the desk… cold dou die jor! 

luckily my honey took v good care of me last nite, n slept with me. feel better and warmer~ hehee 

I spent time to overcome my emotional problems. It isnt easy at all but I can see my improvement. One side, u gain sth, on the other side, u loss sth. I wont tell what exactly it is. However, it is how I balance between my balance. I tried to see things simplern positively. I tried not to touch my problems n the past. u may think I jz escape from it yet i tell u, once u come across sth u cant overcome, that's the only method. As long as i found the right approach n better approach, i think its fine. I tried not to think in only one way, but different views. I spent energy to control my emotion n it does consume me lot of energy. People around me should see my improvement. When I compare the four year ago me, n the recent me, r really different. n this is what i call grown up. Its easy to get upset, but its also easy to get happiness. depends on do u want to get happiness. 

目眩的眼光 擦身邊而過
天真的孩子 有天使的翅膀
黑暗中的一點光
純白之中的一抹黑
翅膀上空無一物 看也看不清

我並不是我
那一個是我
那一個都錯
鏡子裡是我嗎
我的手總抓不住
快樂不過是一口氣
我的心最放不下
風裡的日子

飛也飛不高 沒翅膀不算天算
墮落人間的一首詩 寫的是你
吻也吻不到 請握著我的雙手
請握著我的雙手 最後的願望
不回頭你帶我走
帶我飛出去 告別了傷城

I discovered it accidentally. I m totally disappointed. Everyone told me how bad you were, still I insist to believe in you, to love you. I hated you, n i struggled, n forgave you. Do you know how hard it was? nope. You are more wayward than me. You are selfish. You only do what you wanna do, but neva give shit to me.

Is it you think I got too much, dat I dun mind if I lose one? I tell you, no! All the things I got, r meant how much he loves me, how good he treats me. N, these things meant a lot to me! All r memorable. I tried to get over the past, whatever he did, whatever u did. Why u trigger all the bad things out again? or, u neva know how bad my childhood was. u neva understand. u, made me lived in the disaster n hopeless world. U made me feel so insecure… tell me, how can i trust u again, n u fail it again n again…  

This is my BB mii, wahaha, so cute~ i love it! she's saying she loves me so much in the bubble!!!

So, this is my mii. look like me? i love its mouth so much! so Duck Chik!

Thanx for taking care of me after i got drunk. again, I vomitted. n sorry dat made u so tired n headache. I will try to control myself better n better! love you!!! XXX