those who tell the truth shall die

I don't think it's going
To happen anymore
You took my thoughts from me
Now i want nothing more

And did you think you
Could just take it all away

I dont think it s happening
This is what I say

Leave me alone
Cause i found it all
Twenty one

So I don't think it's going
To happen anymore
I don't think it's going
To happen anymore

Twenty One

Today

Twenty One

Walking in the countryside
It seems that the winds have stopped
I took down the posters from my wall
Left letters for you all

I remember moments of happiness
Endless summer, acoustic guitars
Being a man made me coarse
When I wanted to be delicate

I called up Eugene
Told him I was drowning

Like a castaway on a warm ocean
Waiting for a purpose to rise
They say it's not becoming
For a boy my age

If you want to know what makes me sad
Well it's hope, the endurance of faith
A battle that lasts a lifetime
A fight that never ends

Walking in the countryside
It seems that the winds have stopped
Tell my mother I am sorry
And I loved her

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many ppl at my age, im sure they r the same as me. waiting for a reason, a purpose to rise for life. what we r striving for… some ppl may deny things we do. but why? or we passed the time, the teenage period, failure is no longer acceptable? m i jz someone who is so naive to think in this way? to be honest, i do wat i wanna, to be true to myself, n going through different stages in my life. how could i be something, someone dat u want me to be without walking through the steps?

we talked about why we lived in imagination. we wanna buy things dat we want n now we cant afford to have it, why we pursue those dreams dat far away from us. coz dreams, future, make us move, make us work harder, n that how ppl can become succeed. y money dats so matter? coz everyday, everynite, every sec, we cant live without it. it supports us to do things we want. im not any saint, i want money. 吸風飲露, 清高 r not my style anymore. then, pls dun tell me, to have a dream is wrong. step by step, one day, i could catch it. 

Hor Hor Hor, I received a new “bed sheet” from my honey, that's Thomas and Friends (that train)! Its super lovely! Would be v cute when I put it in the bed! Hor Hor Hor! N, also, I got a Snoopy Boxer as well! M y G O D ! I love it so much. I may buy more (if i can find) later! XXX !!! n also, 草餅, 金莎 with lovely packaging!  What, I jz love it SOOOOOOO muCHHHHHH!!!

Love u, my sweetheart! :X 

Few days ago, i was flipping over the photo album. lot of baby photos, of me for sure. I know i was adorable, endearing and lovely, n now im not anymore. Like my mum always says, u used to be a pretty girl, n c, now u r so ugly!!! (i dunno if she means it… okay…) Look at this pic, my father was holding me, n c, i was “o者” 咀. (when i was small, i already so impatient…!) hard to find pic dat i took with dad. i love ths pic so much, we were jz so cute, both of us…

i miss my childhood always. sometimes, i even wanted to trace back to those moments, yet i know, i never could trace back, get back. this is wat i lost. jz like a missing part. My father and I seldom shared any special moment as i could recall, or its sth like, i was washing car with him, went to work with him, or i left my mathematics homework for him then i went to sleep, the next morning, i found steps that he wrote n taught me. One thing dat is so memorable is, we were sailing in the sea, only 2 of us, in the sea… My mum, only i could recall was, mahjong. I watched her playing mahjong, mahjong n mahjong. 

One saddest thing is, that scene, i called my dad n told him i got the highest mark in the class for the maths test, that's 97 marks. that year was 1997, 27 th november.

Sunshine, have been keeping me up for days… I hope, im not gonna lose it again…  

細個既時候, 大概十四, 五歲至十八歲, 我好鍾意寫野. 咩都寫. 自己, 愛情, 生命, 咩咩咩道理. 人愈黎愈大, 嚇然覺得自己根本就係井底之蛙, 太 silly! 所以, 我慢慢都不再寫o個o的懶係有深度, 高深既野. 而家, 我只係想寫下生活發生既事, 輕鬆下, 無聊下, 就算寫自己今日買左O的咩, 好似 show-off 咁, 我都覺得好O的. 不定期咁寫, 無壓力咁寫, 覺得開心點. 

如果繼續寫O的咁既野, 我覺得會太過沉醉係自己既世界, 亦覺得此做法有機會令我唔開心, 諗O的唔開心既野, 寫O的唔開心既野, 發泄發泄… 唔想再做什麼…”標奇立異, 笑… 唔知係唔係咁寫…”. 自己想簡簡單單, 做我自己. 有咩咩咩大道理, 唔想再提. 當然, 我仍然不願做井底之蛙, 與極無聊之人等同流合污吧!

唔想將簡單既事情複雜. 唔想將無聊既野化為有聊. 呵呵呵, nicole 不竟長大了~

大滿足!大滿足!
last last night, i couldnt sleep… only slepy for 3 hours n woke up to school. i was quite tired, but i was hyper too. I dunno why, sometimes i would get hyper when i dun have enough sleep. so cute. so, last nite, when i came back, around 11. i lied down in bed, n start to sleep, from 11, to 11 today. feel so good. n i couldnt recall my dream, or i didnt have dream last nite, a good sign! eventually, i could get a good sleep, huh! haha…

we saw movie in PP last nite, 慾望迷城, a good one, yet too long. washroons in the cinema are fxxking nice… looks like one in the plane.

so now, i should start to write the 3 objectives for the IS…  

Honey baby bought Madonna's Confessions Tour DVD + CD. Madonna is really a dancing queen. She can dance and sing. Stage performance is perfect. No doubt, it worths to buy. Stage setting and dancers r real good. The effect is so great, brings a hugh impact. Sure, these songs remind me some thoughts. 

I bought her album ” Frozen ” twice, eventually, i lost it twice. I really dunno where did it go. Planning to get it for the third time. Frozen, a disc to me which is so perfect, as well as it brought me quite a hugh impact. Songs like Frozen, to have but not to hold, r quite meaningful. Kinda like, it leaded me out of the dark at that time. It is so true that no matter how hard u try to get hold of sth, things will still slip away from you.  I mean, sometimes things jz dun belong to u. Dun upset urself, treat urself better. It sounds selfish, but i know, what we want for life, is happiness. 

Recent life, reading n reading, do a lot of reading, searching, and now, it comes to the step to organize data. Put it together pieces by pieces. Finally, it becomes a dissertation, haha… n, lunar new year is coming, dad gave me money, then i bought a lot of clothes. not really a lot of, 2 pairs of shoes, n 2 clothes, n a backpack. then, it almost time to stop.

Cut my hair short, feel so fresh. A time that no hair covers my forehead. Hor Hor Hor.

n thanx for my baby getting me cream for my face. my face is now better a lot. heehe!!! 

btw, The cooper temple clause becomes brighter n brighter now. nice album again.

little monkey.